HOLY SHIT.
Friend died. Lost the apartment we wanted in westbrook. Dads really sick again. Me and my mom keep fighting...im just at the end of my rope man. I was a long time ago. Like seriously everyday its something new to add to my pile of "what the hell do i do now." & I am seventeen, I have no control over anything for another year.



Ive decided I want to play guitar really bad again., so im going to try and figure out funding to buy a new one since i never did when I had the cash. I need to move so i can get a damn job. Army enlistment isnt for another month or two and thts only like 200 every other weekend. But yeah, Ive been writing alot of music, Its piling up in notebooks and I want to make something out of them. & it wastes time. Time that I have plenty of when Im stuck at home all my life :] fun.

I seriously cant sleep its almost 4 am, shouldnt have napped earlier. Anyway, I guess Im out since im not going to waste your time with invaluable insomniac thoughts. Take it easy.